Ellie came to school yesterday and i had dinner with her! Thats about the best thing to happen to me since yesterday had been quite sad. I can't believe i spent 3 hours searching the entire school, combing every EVD display to find something i dropped. Definitely had the fear/panic to search for it, till i came to a sudden realisation while in the "tunnel thingy", maybe i should just forget it. I gave up, there and then, instantly. With a blank mind i just stood alone there. Not sure if its just me, but i use to believe everything you want, is what you have to work for. I don't know what might have affected my thinking now, maybe its just events, that i feel maybe, just maybe it isnt true anymore. Since, they say everything happens for a reason, if its meant to be, then its meant to be. So now i found myself stranded with no aim, no desire, no wants, no nothing. Just sitting in my own four walls away from the world, waiting, i don't know what, not planning to do anything, just waiting.

oh fuck, presentation now.