oh fuck, seeing that hurts fucking bad.
i wonder why i even bothered.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's lookin 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I



I HATE CAID 1 so freaking much

damn, caused of last night, i had to miss school today.
suay siao police check twice.
but upp thomson prata house sells sex food.
then the stripping chinese game which surprisingly i didnt end up barenaked.
FB for our stupid entics and wonderboys dance at seletar dam, results of 10 idiots at 3am.

6 days in a row already, i shall do something productive...... later.

jerlynn: why did you cry just now outside when we passed the open studio?
jared: ...
SR: dont ask already
jerlynn: weak. damn gay
jared: sensitive ma
jerlynn: *KICKS*

HAHAHAA, 11 of us idiots drove in a crazy van for chao toufu, then to geylang for frog's leg porridge. Think my chilli level lvled up after the chilli shot with eileen. Now i can take spicy already. Then we beer and smoke our lives away dancing to music at changi's runway.

The past five days had been awesome,
1-sheesha lagoon bedz(freedrinks)
2-phuture zouk
3-sentosa carl's sheesha hog
4-chillicrab newpeirce
5-haiz haiz haiz CTF FRLG hogatrunway+danceoff

JAREDTHINKSWAYYYYYYYTOOMUCH
and he still does think of you every second,
this thursday is gonnar be epic.

I dont know what this feeling is.
Its just familiar, oh no, not again.
HAHAHA, jared. RETARDED.

I love it when guys are all on me like they wanner suck my dick.

bring it on motherfucker. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you in my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And you're restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But damn it you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, what I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said?
what you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
Hey, You know, you keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no No,
And then you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
I know you miss me in your living room
Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

...My Konstantine.

3 fucking nights in a row. i need some sleep

As i took this picture, triggered memories of you flash like a lingering memory of the morning after the first night we shared love. Now, just like a picture, it stays hidden forever from the world. Just like a picture, it is not there anymore, plainly written in memories of a dying heart. Sadly to say, that heart is mine.

we don't need chemistry, we need time travel

This page is saved for butter fac night updates.....

A lil something from lasalle's runway day. I cannot wait for wednesday.

This feeling is horrible, wished i could talk to someone about it.
Oh wait, i did try, so many times, and i gave that up as of that night.
Yesterday would have been better, if thoughts hadnt haunt me all the freaking time.
I came by thrice hoping to bump into you.

So anyway, least i occupied myself cause i gave the camp a miss for stupid reasons.
Gaps inbetween when im alone sucks really bad. Yesterday was laselle.
I'm going to transfer there, freaking nice exterior.
It's nice helping veron's sister. They even allowed for me to choose the main song played during the fashion show.
Hopefully i'd end the show on thursday.
So she taught my how to walk, pose, swing and well, flirt on the runway. Great new experience and they even got me a swarovski crystal filled kanye shades that cost a couple of hundreds to wear. Really really nice to work with her cept she kept poking needles into my ass when doing last min alterations. Its like project runway, whereby everything they do is of the highlest competiveness. We even had to practice the walk all in a secretive area and not expose the outfit and myself till the very day itself.

Allright, now im feeling it again, atleast tonight im going clubbing.

Okay, gtg youtube runways now, out

You asked for the same, but never really held up your end of the bargain

"I've been here before a few times, and i'm quite aware we're dying"




So anyway, its a hardcore birthday, from the start to end, thanks to everyone.

That party last night was awfully crazy I wish we taped it
I danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked
Drink my beer and smoke my weed but my good friends is all I need
Pass out at 3, wake up at 10, go out to eat then do it again

Use Somebody.mp3 - Kings Of Leon

Alright, finally awake with a sore back.
I hate mornings like these. Its like i could barely remember what happened yesterday. Cept for the fact that theres this hot babe that drives a BM convert. Damn hot sex hot sex hot sex. Timbre has nice music, no doubt. Then there was the chill cafe i think? Which made me realised how much i suck at dice games.
Shit comes and goes, time to sober up Jared.

So to the main event, hectic coming week ahead.
Aww damn nice of you people to let me choose the place. Rebel it is.
FUCKING UNIQLO IS OPENING ON MY BIRTHDAY! WHOOT! I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE GRAPHIC TEES!
thank you guys agn for taking me out

I cant find a leading story or how to start this, so id be straight to the point.
Racism is a sensitive topic.
But everyone loves a good racist joke.
Jokes are fine, but not insults.

Im chinese, but i find the mainlanders annoying. Almost smelly all the time.
and please please stop placing lead into everything.

Why for god's sake, can't filipinos pronounce twenty? They go like CHEUN-NY.
Wth is CHEUNNY? And whats with all the slang? Wannabe black rappers? Stuff like "shorty" "homie" "dawg" is cool and all, but the filipinos had to come up with their own rendition "bebop" "pinoy". LOLOMG. WTF IS THAT. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Alright, maybe i should respect that, you know, different people think different things are cool. Like how people in mustafa like to hold hands, they think its cool.

We chinese are quite the stingy people. Im talking about the pure pure singaporeans who still ONLY speak chinese or dialects and read the chinese paper. Can't they stop gossiping about others in their face? There was this once, a few days back, i boarded the bus tapping my EZlink. Only to realise that its negative in value and i had no coins with me. Then a kind soul gave me a dollar to pay for the fare on not wanting anything in return. Of cause im greatful. Then the two aunty a few seats behind started shaking their head and said in chinese "aiyo, this boy got no money want to take bus, then must take money from stranger, then never pay back."
HELLO!!!! I CAN FREAKING HEAR!?! Besides, i dont have any small change. Not that i have no money...

ARGHHH.

So singaporeans are singaporeans afterall. Thats what makes mixed blooded people naturally more outstanding.

If youre taiwanese/singaporean chinese , youre hot
Indian/chinese, hot
Caucasian/chinese, maybe?
Brazilian/anything, hell yeah!
Japanese/anything, SEX
Thai/chinese, !!!!!!!!
Afro-american/filipino, *drops dead die of laughter

just got home...
limjian josh shaun SR cheryl
timbre, chill cafe
5-10, dice games
thanks

your voice, was the soundtrack of my summer.
do you know you're unlike any other,
you'll always be my thunder.

a(RED) says:
hhaa
got paid 100 bucks
you were an exquisite waste of time. says:
serioussss
but you being there was weird
haha
ja(RED) says:
why weird?!?
you were an exquisite waste of time. says:
like you were shouting
haha
ja(RED) says:
they said i was good
you were an exquisite waste of time. says:
haha
ja(RED) says:
cause its quite hard to act natural when you know what was going on
you were an exquisite waste of time. says:
i dont deny that haha jared's fab acting skills that made me embarrass myself in front of a stranger
yeah im quite sure you can pull this off
haha not bad

didnt sleep and had to take a cab with yufeng and chiam to vivo at 5am. freaking tired. filming and all ended and we went to national geo to pay and enter the icebox thingy. negative 11 degree in it. okay damn lazy to post.

oh catch me on chn news asia at 7pm and 10pm and chn 5 at 930.

jinhui damn cute, she was like "id my eyes didnt fail me, i just saw you on national TV" and "what happened to your hair?"
okay, i just got my pay for acting, anyone wanner go out?