it was going to be a long post, but i got too caught up with gun mods.
so back to one liners.

- i started modding nerfs again and maybe even playing in wars.
- work still sucks my life
- my sis came back from shanghai ystr, so im not alone at home anymore
- she just told me a couple of hours ago that shes' going to sydney, and just left... so im alone in sg again.
- work tmr at 9
- fml
- roxy?

Its horrible when its bad,

but irreplacable when its good.

I hope we work things out,

cause ILY stranger...

Lately ive been busy working 9-6 at ECO.ID an interior architecture consultency firm at cityhall. Well, being an intern is kinda fun cept slavering from 9-6. As of tomorrow, after my sis flies to shanghai, i'd be the loner of the house and for th forth time this two months, the house is empty cause everyone went overseas on their own vacation.

I won't entirely be left alone cause.... IM FUCKING GOING TO BANGKOK TO CELEBRATE THE GIRLFRIEND'S BIRTHDAY!!!!! OhMyGodFuckYes! ILY so much!, and im damn glad we had that talk last night. Plus today, you really made my day (:

just a preejaculation hype moment-> Tmr we're gg se7en. Lets rock this shit.

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This is my blog, so i get to write here to remind myself of somethings... so clearly placing here would be for my own reference. It is a personal blog and only for those of close friends and family to read. So any other people who read this is of their own will and i will not be found liable. btw, its simple english. and ignore the heavy load of typos. Its msn and a word race...

mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
i really hope you'll leave my cousin alone; you've hurt her enough; i know every single thing what happened; you're lucky she didnt complain to me; this isnt a threat; im just saying; and i dont wan you to think she's a toy you can play arnd with. you get what i mean yea? one more time dude; its my last warning. takecare. and please leave her alone. you've hurt her enough; bare this in your mind;
dont try me
ja(RED) says:
?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
you need not say anything; just remember what i told you (:
ja(RED) says:
i dont respond well to threats
and not to sound bad or what
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
like i said; its nt a threat; im just giving you last warning; she's nt a toy;
ja(RED) says:
but i dont think ive spoken to her in a long time
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
ok good
ja(RED) says:
how is a warning not a threat?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
leave my family alone;
ja(RED) says:
no seriously
do you know what youre typing or not?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
lOl. you're questioning me now?
ja(RED) says:
yeah
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
im telling you off nicely; dont push it bro; seriously dont push it
ja(RED) says:
i kinda actualy am
cause it doesnt make sense what youre saying
youre contradicting statements with statements
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
ok maybe it doesnt to you
now im telling you
to just stfu? and leave my family alone? possible?
ja(RED) says:
so youre telling me off? or talking to me nicely?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
simple
ja(RED) says:
cause the interweb doesnt quite carry tone
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
just leave her alone. thats it (:
ja(RED) says:
and how am i not leaving youre family alone when i didnt even contact anyone in youre family
at all
and if i remember clearly last
it was the other way around
and if youre trying o be serious and placed a smilley at the end
youre confusing the rule of sarcasm
so how would i take you seriously if you dont understand what youre saying yourself
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
its your choice
seriously
if you think im joking den try me (:
very simple luh
ja(RED) says:
now how in any of those sentence ive just said refer to me thinking youre koing?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
i just wan you to dont get in touch with her anymore from this day onwards
ja(RED) says:
joking?*
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
dont need to talk so much. seriously just do that can?
ja(RED) says:
enlighten me of what i did please
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
i dont have much time to waste on you
i jus drop by
wanna say
these
thats all
ja(RED) says:
then what are you doing now?
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
so very simple. im gonna cut it short; and repeat this once again; i wan you to leave her alone; and not keep in touch with her; be it she contacts you or you contact her.
possible?
ja(RED) says:
then may i ask, how the hell is it possible to leave her alone if she contacts me?
then again, maybe you know how
so im still asking
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
dont reply her ?
dont bother ?
simple
ja(RED) says:
thats on the contrary of what you just mentioned
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
its whether you wan or nt
ja(RED) says:
alright, thanks, youre so very nice to explain and type out what i needed
mad_watermelon@hotmail.com says:
no problem. thanks for hearing me out; bye.

decent distant disaint difference

Memory forbids judgement, cruel intentions, only one suffering too many to hold. I tremble as i hear the sounds you speak foreign to how your heart beats, it beats, but not for the likes of me, not truly.

i want to drink strawb iceblend with jelly nao.

this silence is killing me inside.
i used to know the right words at the right time.
but this is me now, not a word i speak,
thats who we are now.
and if both ways dont work,
we'll just let it pass.

i feel so useless, that everytime i try to make things better, i screw up somehow.
yesterday i went to school, a few people asked me why i keep everything to myself,
and i told them... well i didnt say anything.

and if they say ever since i met you, ive become a better person, then why does everything i do make you doubt me. why is it when everytime i try to make things better, i reflect a poetic written disappointment to you.

i would go to sleep 12 minutes later than usual, with promises the morning would be better, but faith fell short this time. now i just never know what to do, cept watch your back when you walk away.

i dont know in which way being sweet to you, has made you doubt me again.

you make me smile inside, even when we don't speak

still going strong after 5hours awake in the middle of the night...
heres why:

th sum of awesome possum equals to the awesomeness of the sum of possums.

After 3 days of making my 3rd product, i dropped it and it smashed. yup, thats about how my day went. FML, but thank god for my awesome gf.

When you sat there across my seat, dancing to the penguin dance when we're at bark's, that moment...
When you kept silent and held my arm to calm me down, right after i threw my broken model smashing it to pieces, that moment...
When i woke up to cook breakfast for you, and crept back in my room to find you awaking to the smell of boiled sausages and scrambled eggs, that moment...
When you have this sparkle in your eyes whenever you have creative ideas to raise money for charities, that moment...

that moment, i witnessed beauty

I talk to you every now and then
I never felt so alone again
I stop to think at a wishing well
My thoughts send me on a carousel

Here I am standing on my own
Not a motion from the telephone
I know not a reason why
Solitudes a reason to die

Now as I walk down the street
I need a job just to sleep in sheets
Buying food every once in a while
But not enough to purchase a smile

A tank of gas is a treasure to me
I know now that nothing is free
I talk to you every now and then
I never felt so alone again

Just you wait and see
As school life is a
It is a woken dream
Aren't you feeling alone?

I guess its just another night alone

for all the people who watched this and laughed at this guy:



heres something that says "IN YOUR FACE":

How did we wind up like this.
We were too perfect for a broken list.

When you left, you tore me into pieces

This thing we have
its intricate
its ineffable
but we're intrepid
we move on
we NodhakgjagjbdgfG
individually, we're a fiasco
together, we're the epitome of envy

tell me,
this thing we have,
its not over,
ever

But we were perfect you and me right? The epitome of envy? individually i'm a fiasco. I can't go on like this. We were suppose to grow old together as promised. We're suppose to live in a house wayyyy more awesome than that in the brochure. Theres so many things we have not done, we were suppose to drive around and eat everything in singapore and go "bao bao" to each other. Whos gonnar "iloveyou" to my ears listen to me singing random songs about anything that comes to mind. You said omegle.com makes me feel better. IT DOESNT. I cant do anything right now, all i did was plunge my face in this tear soaked pillow still without sheets. I miss how you'll smack me saying im such a blob and the way you say "baby". I told you i'dd fight off an army of mutant frogs and stop "GOR-BER-WOH-MING". Nobody would ever say "you're such a geek" and "i love you" in the same sentence. What about WOLFENSTEIN? okay,ITS NOT DOOM. AND YOU OWE ME A SODA. Nobody ever wants to walk mambo and kobe with me but you. Id let you poke my nose with hair, id do anything. Omg im shaking damn badly.

When i look into your eyes for the last time, everything raced through my mind. How i saw you sitting at the back of class the first day of lesson, how id jump into a pool the first time i asked you to be mine, fucking boring fishing trips fearing about getting hooked in the head. Our non speaking games. Coins day. How we'd torcher each other by making each other laugh damn bad in public. How we'll play stupid games all the time like drinking finish the frozen drink then try not to laugh. Our feirce slap hand games and the stupid finger touch head game that i still dont know why we play at all. I can't even type properly now, my hands are shaking damn badly.

I love you so much, i don't want you to leave. Please dont go.

okay, i just finished season four of HIMYM.
its almost 4am and i have presentation tmr. goodluck jared

I hate formal wear, which brings me to tomorrow. goddamit.
Pcomdi interview ftw.

So i can't decide which phone to get.

-Nokia N97
-Sony Ericsson Xperia X1
-Prada two
-Iphone 3GS

how ppl?

I'm in love with every little thing about you
Yup, even when you think my speed racer shirt is uncool