But we were perfect you and me right? The epitome of envy? individually i'm a fiasco. I can't go on like this. We were suppose to grow old together as promised. We're suppose to live in a house wayyyy more awesome than that in the brochure. Theres so many things we have not done, we were suppose to drive around and eat everything in singapore and go "bao bao" to each other. Whos gonnar "iloveyou" to my ears listen to me singing random songs about anything that comes to mind. You said omegle.com makes me feel better. IT DOESNT. I cant do anything right now, all i did was plunge my face in this tear soaked pillow still without sheets. I miss how you'll smack me saying im such a blob and the way you say "baby". I told you i'dd fight off an army of mutant frogs and stop "GOR-BER-WOH-MING". Nobody would ever say "you're such a geek" and "i love you" in the same sentence. What about WOLFENSTEIN? okay,ITS NOT DOOM. AND YOU OWE ME A SODA. Nobody ever wants to walk mambo and kobe with me but you. Id let you poke my nose with hair, id do anything. Omg im shaking damn badly.

When i look into your eyes for the last time, everything raced through my mind. How i saw you sitting at the back of class the first day of lesson, how id jump into a pool the first time i asked you to be mine, fucking boring fishing trips fearing about getting hooked in the head. Our non speaking games. Coins day. How we'd torcher each other by making each other laugh damn bad in public. How we'll play stupid games all the time like drinking finish the frozen drink then try not to laugh. Our feirce slap hand games and the stupid finger touch head game that i still dont know why we play at all. I can't even type properly now, my hands are shaking damn badly.

I love you so much, i don't want you to leave. Please dont go.